too embarrassed?

[Adelina]

Keep the fantasy, but set the reality question aside for now. Give yourself time to get your feet wet around here. Read, chat, get to know people as people, not just as potential Daddies. Make yourself comfortable and make some friends.

After you know people and develop relationships based on who you are (not just the role you play), it may be less scary to approach the possiblity of turning fantasy into the real thing.