I Got Inked!

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Originally Posted by Rose

Jersey, I lost my father in early 2002. He was severely depressed and an alcoholic too. It wasn't the alcohol that took him; he had a genetic heart problem that we never knew about until he passed. But I remember telling a trusted friend not six months before he passed that if he kept on drinking the way he was, he would die within a year.

I think your tribute is beautiful, and my heart goes out to you.

I wish my father had died of a heart attack, or an illness, or because of the alcohol. But he didn't, and thats hard because it means it was his choice to die. It's not supposed to be up to us. You know? I don't believe he is a bad person for killing himself, and nor do I believe it's the "easy way out". Because I've tried, and it's not - I couldn't get passed thinking about it, it was too hard, way to big of a decision for me to make for myself. I can't imagine what he was going through and despite his faults, I miss him more than anything in the world.

Kate