Breaking the ice with a new submissive

[WildAtHeart]

I was the shy one when I brought up the idea of spanking to my boyfriend (now fiance') fumbling and tripping over my words, embarrassed as all hell. Come to find out that he knew exactly where I was going with the conversation the entire time and he meant to make me a little uncomfortable. Now he'll pull me over his lap, or bend me over the bed, or even hold me slightly bent into him over his arm and spank me whenever he feels like it. Sometimes he'll give in to me when I want a spanking or even just a few swats, and sometimes he'll ignore me which is annoying when I'm craving that sensation. I have fantasized and even written stories about being spanked by other guys but have always had the fear (until now, having found this site) of sharing this particular detail in my life. I felt like if I reveal to anyone that I like being spanked they'll have this weird or negative reaction. So to make a short story even longer, I am the submissive one.