Am I wierd

So i'm 22 now but when I was in the 10th grade I came home with a 3 F's on my report card. I had never been spanked before and was expecting a grounding, but my mom told me to go over to the neighbors house. She was recovering from surgery at the time and was in no position to spank.

I went over there and it was just the mom and her little kid there (the dad was away) and she told me to go in her room. I knew what was going to happen and I was extremely excited about it almost to the point where I wanted to scream.

She told me to take all my clothes off and get over her lap. She was overweight and not a good looking woman so I knew it wasn't do to that but when I laid on her lap I got an erection and it rubbed against her when she was holding me there. I knew she felt it and it was really embarrasing. She started spanking me and the pain was so intense I couldn't believe it. She would spank me 2-3 times and then rub and carress my butt. After it was over my penis was very hard and I threw my clothes on and ran home.

It was hard to face her after that when she came over to see my mom and I'm not sure if she told my mom. To this day I have not been spanked since.

I still masturbate to that day though.

Am I wierd?