[EmmyDoll]

Oh the joys of self spanking. *eye roll*

I have several things that can be put in here, and I suppose that I can talk about them. I didn't go into huge detail in my blog.

While I was in a relationship with Matt, in the begining of our senior year in highschool I believe, I had a long distance disciplinarian, whom I am still good friends with and even thought I might have been in love with. However, the details of our relationship are NOT important. The way he made me discipline myself is. I became very familar with a wooden spoon which was kept in my underwear drawer. The words "Go get the spoon." Still make me shiver. However, in that relationship, I could never seem to spank myself hard enough to get the desired impact that I wanted him. He seemed to be satisfied as he listened on the phone or made me do it over webcam, that seemed to be the most effective tool. The fact that it was heard, or that I was embaressed. He had other ways of disciplining me as well. I had a clear corner and he would make me stand in it, or send me to the bathroom for the clear, non scented liquid soap. The corner was effective only if I was beeing watched, because if not, I would usually just wonder out of it. And the soap was always done over the phone so I could not get out of it. Our relationship quickly died off, because I was scared of the scene and 'happy' with my boyfriend. I tried to forget about it, but the spoon is still there.

Before that relationship, of course I tried the self spanking. I remember the first time very vividly in my mind. It was only a few months before my 'disciplinary' relationship. I went into my parents closet (it seemed to be the most sound proof) with several implements in hand. A wooden spoon, a leather strap which my dad kept in the barn, a flip flop, and a hairbrush that my mom had in her dresser. I remember spanking as hard as I could but only getting a little sting. However, my skin did bruise and it looked horrible. After that, I rarley spanked myself, only because I could not get the proper angle and I need a REAL spanking.


But as for the self-spanking as a course of discipline, if there is someone to 'witness' it. I find it very effective.


And I would just like to adress Kaylex's early statment. Capsazin! God, girl! You're killing me!