[Farmgirl]

I am active, but privately. Spanking is foreplay for my guy and me, and has been since we met, when I was 18 and he was 25. On rare occasions when I am depressed or stressed out it's also therapy that I ask him for. Psychologically and emotionally, that's a lot deeper and more visceral than foreplay.

Sure, I've been tempted to get myself spanked by other men, but my guy and I agreed early in our relationship that spanking was an intimate part of our sexual personas, him as the top and me as the bottom, and we would not share that outside our relationship, any more than we would have actual sexual intercourse with other persons. I know that others seem to be able to separate the two things, spanking and sex, but we can't. To us, they're too intimately connected.

I've never been to a party but would like to be a 'fly on the wall' at one. I considered going to a Crimson Moon party in Chicago when we lived there, and I chatted with some of its members online and got invited, but I chickened out. Mainly I didn't want to tell my guy, because he would have never agreed, and I might have gotten something other than an erotic spanking.