I am definitely a bottom or submissive and have been, I think, since I was very young and got spanked in play by my boy cousin. It thrilled me. I'm the "f" in a M/f relationship now, and I truly do need it to keep myself emotionally whole.

Switching or being a top has never appealed to me although I did it as a kid playing 'house.' If you met me in person you would probably find me to be quite normal, but this is what you would find deep down in my persona.